How many times I have snatched defeat from the jaws of victory (18th July 2006)

How many times I have snatched defeat from the jaws of victory. How many more times have I just looked away when victory was sitting there waiting for me, like with Carol at Sunset. —– & —– at the Scotsman. —–. They all presented themselves to me on a plate. Bus stop girl. “Oh you’re so sweet, do you know that!” pigtail barmaid at the Calcutta.They all just offered themselves to me, while I was minding my own business. Ursula at the Calcutta. When opportunity arises, I go cold, like with Melani, and Lilith. I send them all away.***On way back from haircut, went in Calcutta for coke & three beers, following me in was brunette in little brown vest, quite big breasts, butterfly tattoo on back, as I sat in box seat she sat in front of me, kept looking at herself in mirror but really to see if I was noticing her.