Well where do I go from here? (10th April 2006)

Well, where do I go from here? It has been a very stressful few months. THE ONLY WAY TO BEHAVE WHEN ATTACKED IS WITH MORE DEFIANCE! LIVE MORE WILDLY! DO WORSE! PROVOKE & PROVOKE THEM EVEN MORE! FLAUNT YOURSELF IN THEIR FACES! I AM FRANCIS BACON! I AM WEDEKIND! I AM KASPAR HAUSER! I AM AUTISMUS. I AM LOTTA. I AM THE COLD ICY AIR OF THE MOUNTAINS. I AM WALKING THROUGH THE ISHTAR GATE. I AM SEEING ELENA PROKINA IN EUGENE ONEGIN. I AM SEEING VIKTOR MULLER’S SALOME. I AM SEEING ADOLPH MENZEL’S BAROQUE ALTARS. Everyone is so contemptuous and scornful of me at the moment. So what? I am autistic. I am strange & eccentric. I am silent & withdrawn. “Solitary and private, in spite of the crowd around them, Roosters enjoy their dreams.”